So Lost. So Strewed. So Tired.

I wonder why? I wonder why. I wonder...

Glazing over the night sky through the windows.
I sat there and thought.
I sat there and sort.
Held my legs, curled up and cry.
All, felt was plain despair.

Brilliance was not my forte, as long, was it gone.
Simple to say, hard to stay, those words of mine.

I wanted so much to give up. I wanted. I wanted. I deeply wanted.
I wanted it so much to sow into my soul.
And grew into sleepless nights.

Spare that thought, people would say.
"Don't bother" I pondered and sway.

There would be no ending to such thoughts.
As I has already befriended and made love to them.